March

So I've decided that March is by far one of the best months of the twelve.

1. My birthday is in March

2. March Madness- by far one of the most exciting sports moment of the year for me

3. It begins to warm up and makes one thirst for the summer

4. Track season :)

5. Saint Patrick's Day- perhaps I simply like how close my birthday falls to this holiday as well as green being one of my favorite colors

6. I get to see my boyfriend because of this thing called SPRING BREAK!

7. Spring officially starts

8. The wind stops being a bitter B****

9. The birds come back

However, March has it's bad moments like every other month...mostly the end of relationships.

Luckily this year I have one worth keeping around past my birthday. Looks like 22 may be a good age to come into.

So what are my plans for my birthday?

Laundry! I don't really make plans for things like birthdays for it seems pointless to have it celebrated after all this time. Besides one does have to pack to head off to Spring Break.

March could break my heart or make my year. Grad school is a real hassle to apply to. Already I have had schools lose the bits and pieces that go into an application. Norfolk State is probably the worst school I've applied to. They not only have lost everything practically, but they are also unwilling to admit that they have perhaps made a mistake and are quite unwilling to work with me to take care of the "error". The University of New Mexico has lost around the same amount of paperwork (transcripts and letters of recommendation) but thankfully they've been willing to admit the mistakes they've made and have worked well with me to make sure my application is made complete. I just hope all the extra work into getting this application put together works for my benefit. I have yet to get both accepted and receive funding. Hopefully March works for the better.

Other thoughts...I really need to get out and do things. I have told myself that being a student athlete has hindered me in doing what I really want to go out and do. These "things to do" vary from late night runs to Waffle House to going on weekend camping trips. I hope that in grad school I'm able to find people who will more than likely be life-long friends. I want to get out more, do more things, and frankly just have fun.

This March I turn 22. I am yet young but in the next year I anticipate becoming an aunt to my year younger brother's child, being a maid of honor while attending my first wedding, and possibly a lot of plane rides. I don't even know what I desire for my birthday-- a first.

I'm excited to see my boyfriend. It has been roughly 4 months since I could smell him, hug him, and stare at him knowing that if I wanted I could run my hands over his cute little round face. We've been dating almost 8 months and I start to wonder when do couples start thinking about marriage? I'm not in a hurry, and I don't know if I want to marry this guy. People say that a marriage takes love, however I disagree. Marriages fail every year for lack of communication, general unhappiness, and in short a lack of commitment to struggle through difficult times. It is hard to know if you want to spend every day of the rest of your life with someone, especially when you wish every day that you could be near them because you never see them. Perhaps this is what worries me-- being apart for so long we don't know how to "live" with each other in our daily lives. I don't want to go to a grad school simply because it is near my current boyfriends grad school...especially if the relationship slips into a mild complacency and impending doom like all the others have.

Anyway March has many things up it's sleeves this year. Hopefully it will be a March to smile upon.